the world outside my window is pinkish which is surprising considering how grey and shit it was today. i wonder if anyone else has noticed the light.
for the first time in recent memory i cant stand being alone, though my need to be around people is less about being afraid of what happens when im alone, rather im afraid of whats happening when im not with my friends. i worry that they're having fun with out me, forgetting about me.
its unfortunate that i live my life constantly reevaluating my thoughts and feelings. it keeps me from making real connections with people- im selfish in the weirdest way. people say im hard to talk to and i guess that can be true, im not great at asking conversational questions and my answers never seem to be of interest. to a certain degree i just lack an active interest in people and events. myself is included in "people". i like looking for answers but when i find them i often lack the foresight to use the answer to come up with a solution to the issue for which i was seeking an answer.
i hope noah doesnt...op, just got a text...flakey bastard.
